Hi DKBear,

I am also a new member,but I was diagnosed with bipolar last May 2006 and I am still struggling to find the right meds to work for me without severe side effects. I don't currently work due to my severe symptoms and numerous hospitalizations since last year. However, when I was working last year it was horrible. I couldn't keep up with all my paperwork, I was isolating from everyone, deeply depressed and hyponmanic from day to day, Currently my pdoc says I'm hypomanic due to problems with my current meds. I do tend to get more aggravated easier, lots of bursts of energy, then melt down to do nothing. He also has diagnosed me with mixed and rapid cycling as well. It's pure hell to live like this and have feelings of disgust that I feel at times. I get so overwhelmed and feel hopeless about my illness since no meds have really made me stable yet. I've been hospitalized over 6 times since Feb 2006, first due to depression that is until they correctly diagnosed me with bipolar I. He says my type of illness is the most hard to treat because it is treatment resistant. I just want to get better and feel pride in myself again. Iunderstand how even working at home could cause problems because it's so easy to be so irritable, which is the start of my hypomania. Hang in there.