i have tried a few times. On a couple times i was in intensive care with a guard watching me un till i stabilized, and they could transfer me to a psy ward. one time while i was attempting i felt scared. At that time i had several things i would do if another would fail, including a gun. Other times i wad depressed, felt hopeless, and that no one would miss me if i were gone. Depression is a very strong emotion, and i still feel it almost every day of my life. I know i have so much to be thankful for, but i also have so many abuses, and other things that i have been through. I am still working with a therapist, and a therapist to help me work through everything.I also have all of you ppl to help me through some of it, and i thank all of you who help, befriend me, or anything. It has been such a long battle, i just want to feel like a normal person.