I've been on meds about 7 years. I am in the process of tapering off, as directed by pdoc. I initiated the going off, but everybody on my treatment team is ok with it. Some of them are like "You don't feel any different?" and I respond no, and since I didn't feel any different when I started taking the meds I don't really expect to have anything change with me going off. When I went on meds, I was super depressed, suicidal and all that. pdoc kept making changes and adding things until I started on Abilify (with 6 other psych meds) which as I said above, numbed the worst of the feelings. I wasn't suicidal anymore-but that may also be due to the fact that I had years of therapy while all this was going on. Finally, about a year ago I noticed that I wasn't as depressed. I actually had some flashes of hope that I might get thru this, some confidence that the treatment would work. At that point I started tapering down Abilify and I found that I actually felt better off it-I believe that it numbed both good and bad feelings and now that the bad were not so incredibly overwhelming I could actually feel ok. I credit that turnaround to therapy. So I am off Abilify, And some of the other meds I was taking. Now I take a small dose of welbutrin, will be continuing to taper. I take a medium dose of nortiptylene, lower that I was. And I take cyclobenzaprine for sleep. It makes me happy each time I go to take meds because I take so much fewer.