I'm having motivation issues with medication again. I just can't seem to get myself to take it even though I need it and I'm supposed to take it.

I'm not depressed, but I'm frustrated because I'm rapid cycling and nothing seems to help me very much. It's basically, "why bother with meds if they're not going to work anyway?"

I went through the trouble of getting myself emergency meds from the pharmacy when my Rx's ran out a few days ago. The pharmacists were nice enough to give me some pills to cover myself for the next few days. So I know that deep down that I want to take my medication because I'm thinking "it's the right thing to do", but I just can't get myself to do it. Everyday is a struggle.

What can I do to motivate myself? Knowing me, I'll probably stop my meds again, then become manic and hallucinate. At which point I'll soon end up severely depressed and probably refuse to go to IP (as usual). But despite knowing this, I still can't motivate myself to take my meds.