It resonates with me. I find platatudes to be offensive. I had "sayings" reinforced as I grew up and some of these turned into harmful "core beliefs" and even those words are hard for me to identify with. When I first began to be around other people with my diagnosis I learned there were things I could do if I was getting lost in the past. I needed to focus on the now, for example. But I innately find the flaws in what are meant to be helpful tools for me. If I get back in the now, just as often as not I have returned to a time that is painful and triggering. That's how I ended up in the flashback. I want to say that I do see the irony of it all. My mind is a mine field and there are times I am ambling about blind to the hazards and other times I am at high alert, perceiving threats to our peace at every turn. Hahaha, I guess you could say I am not the most stable of them all!
However therapy specifically for this is still new to me. Yet my T has shown humanity, respect, and consideration outside of those 50 minutes.
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