the hard thing about christmas/ holidays, (at least for me), is actually coming to the realisation that you're own your own for it, you have no one who does actually want to support you through it or anyone who wants to spend it with you, and you end up doing things like (in my case), buying my own christmas presents so they arn't even surprises, or cooking an entire turkey dinner just for the majority of it to go to waste.

or having no one to send a christmas card too

it's the simple joys I don't have, and it all adds up in the end.

me christmas day will probably be me, sitting in my room, scoffing chocolates, and wondering why 2016 was such a crap year