I seriously do this to myself just about every month. And it's not until I run out that I get horrific attacks. I tell myself every month that I'll be good but I still fail. I get my refill on Friday and I may give it to my bf to hold on to. Do you maybe have someone like that? Someone you can trust?? I've had to do this before when I was quitting opiates. He had to hid my suboxone from me and I tore apart the house, tried to bribe him, then turned to anger and threatened him. But I got through it.