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Originally Posted by Icare dixit
Do you ever believe something is written, spoken, in a certain state or done just for you or maybe people like you or to express the state you're in or your thoughts (maybe that all of reality is created for you; when it later seems unlikely)?
Do you ever feel you control everything and/or everything around you (or you created it)?
Do you ever feel like others control you or things are made to control you?
Do you ever feel you have no control over your life, what you do and/or think, at all?
Anything like it?
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I've never really felt reality is made for me, but I have felt like certain messages were sent just for me, like I identified with a message so much (maybe in a book/movie) that I felt like the universe was sending me messages, this happened particularly often when I was feeling really dysphoric. In a way I thought I was waking up to things that others hadn't or couldn't. I desperately tried to express this but was met with resistance. It linked in with the feeling of being controlled (maybe it's more control via social convention, I've felt that there is essentially a bigger force of intelligent people who are able to control how we think via messages in media etc).
Don't think I've ever felt like I've created the things around me though.