Typically I feel like an adult - a family provider, doing the needful. Since the event that trigger the steep drop into depression and starting this work to get out of it, I have felt a wide ranges of ages and have been processing the world through the emotions of those ages. I am still mostly adult and still doing the responsible needful things. Yesterday I was feeling and imaging things (fantasies) as young as infant through early teen. It would flow and jump around. Mostly living at young child level.

I am doing better today as the day has progressed. I can feel the adult me here and things are stabilized (or maybe just stuffed away in their corners but they are quiet).