Hi DKbear,

Please bear with me no pund intended. However, I am probably very hypomanic right now so what I say may sound screwy. I was on Geodon for about 3 weeks and had to get off due to I thought it was making me sick to my stomach, then to find out I had some kind of stomach problems which I now take Reglan to help. I also just two days ago had to stop taking Lamictal due to having a rash with bumps and extreme itching.This is the second time I have used this med. the first time it worked great, then when I went to a treatment facility in Sept they decreased it and by the time I came back home I decided to go off all my meds for 2 weeks to see if I would feel better, i told my pdoc and although he didn't like it he knew something had to change. He put me in the medical section of the hospital and weaned me off all my meds. Now he is titrating me back on them slower to see if I can withstand them better. so far not working too good. I just called him and told him how I am manic or hypomanic and he said to increase the Trileptal to 300 mg in the am and 300 in the evening, plus take 6 mg of Invega and to see him next Friday. I hope this works because I can't keep still and the hypomania isn't feeling as great as it did this morning. I am worn out from cleaning everything I can find to clean, and my heart beat is way to fast at 128 beats.

I agree we have alot of similar symptoms including some paranoia and I have even in the past saw things that weren't there like shadows and dark animals passing real fast in front of me especially when I was driving. Those hallucinations lasted when I was in a manic phase and I haven't had anymore thank God. However I do from time to time become paraoid about certain things like if my hubby is flirting or having an affair with his boss. I hate her because he told her about my illness and she also knows how I think about their relationship is too friendly for employee to boss. It's a small company and my hubby has a small part of ownership so he feels entitled to work all kinds of hours. It's been a little better lately since he knows how I feel.

Oh I don't want to forget to say that perhaps I have been hearing voices in my head, but they are my own telling me to hurt myself and take overdose of my meds, which I did in Sept. I don't really want to die, but all of a sudden when I am in the throes of severe depression, which always comes after a manic episode, I those voices make me do things I would never do on my own. My husband also doesn't quite understand this illness, and feels sometimes I could get better on my own even without any meds. He blames the meds on my worsening condition and this gives him proof that there are not working. He is ashammed of my illness as I know from the way and the things he says to me. He is insensitive about my past suicide attempts and said a few days ago that since he hates our African Grey parrot, that i should teach him how to commit suicide. I was very offended and upset and told him a few days later and he said it was a joke, no harm by it. so I do understand your predicament and hope that we can chat more often as I also need support since he is not giving me the support I need.