hi there
i feel for you too, i remember those daycare days... had issues with one provider and that sent my anxiety through the roof trying to find another reliable and trustworthy provider. it all worked out in the end, and it will for you. just do your research carefully, get references and have them meet with you and your baby so you can get a feel for how they are with the baby.

as for fearing the worse, i still get that like that alot of times, but i have to keep reminding myself...ONE DAY AT A TIME.. i can not predict the future.

take care