My depression (hell) started when my dad passed away,I've always considered myself to be strong willed but I see now I'm not,I have a loving husband who up til a few months ago didn't understand what I'm going thru,now I'm back on the chase for a med that helps my most recent was prozac 40mg and my pcp switched me to 20mg lexapro don't think I like it much me like you I can't find satisfaction in the little things I fake smiles and pretend a lot I'd rather sit on my but all day and do nothing and absolutely no motivation to do anything no matter how hard I try... I know I didn't answer any questions but please know you are not alone!