So my cousin was my best friend. until a few months ago when he started dating a girl he knew I had a crush on. he even asked me if I was okay with it, I said no, if you do this it will cause problems with our relationship. he went ahead and carried on with what he was doing with her, and they're still together. I went ape **** on him shortly after we had the are you okay with this talk. and now we aren't speaking at all.

Now he also dumped his previous girlfriend shortly before this all started. and he wasn't good to her at all. treated her like ****, emotionally abusive, and she did nothing to deserve the treatment she got, and I saw a lot.

Well about a week ago his ex posted something on facebook about being best friends with your cousin. I made a comment on the post insinuating that he and I were having big problems and not talking. well she texted maybe a day after I made the post, and we've been talking daily since then, like talking all day. and I've had a thing for her since the first time I saw her. I remember what she was wearing the first time I saw her.

well tonight I told her I liked her, and why I liked her. because my cousin and I were so close we hung out a lot, so I know her pretty well already. now I know if my cousin and I were still talking this would be a no no, but since we aren't speaking (and I don't think I can ever forgive him for the choice he made) I'm not finding any problems with moving forward on this venture with her.

my cousin decided a chance with a girl was worth risking and losing the relationship he had with his best friend, and he treated her like ****, and she was nothing but good to him.

now Monday night I didn't sleep at all, and its now 20 to 2am and I'm not tired at all, I'll be lucky if I sleep tonight. so I might be a bit on the manic side, and I just don't want to do anything stupid..

It's a totally messed up situation, I just wanted to get some thoughts on this from you peeps. and sorry for the pretty long post.