I am older now and lost my mom long ago. Only recently did I realize that the sometimes dysfunctional relationship I had with my mom has had an enormous impact on the relationship with my husband and children. When I was hurt by my mom or refused to comply with the things she wanted me to do or say--I would totally withdraw from her. My withdrawal was hurtful for both of us. I coped with it by burying my feelings. I wonder if not acknowledging these feelings is one of the reasons that I have had suicide ideation, on and off, most of my life. Thankfully, I am currently feeling hopeful and want to live!