Yes I also don't trust myself when I am in the lows because they get too low before I realize it and then it's too late for me to ask for help. I just told my husband what's going on with me as he came home early from work with a migraine. Great timing. I could see the disappointement in his eyes as I told him that I could possibly be manic and then as history goes, I tend to go into a spiral of depression. I think I should also be aware of this and have him take away my Ativan and old bottle of Klonopin which I overdosed on in Sept. I don't trust the voices in my head that are sure to come one day soon. I guess I need to get prepared for that if it comes so I won't be left off guard and end up in the hospital again. I'm sorry that your husband is not supportive, but mine isn't supportive emotionally, but we are in therapy (not Working) to learn how to have fun with each other again. We have so many issues can't write them all down. A lot has to do with the way he was raised and his own values. He doesn't know the concept of unconditional love. That should desribe it all to you. I am working on not letting it botter me so much since I depend on him for everything especially financially. We have a 10 year old son and I want to make my marriage work no matter what it costs me. They adore each other and I don't want to break up even an unhappy home life. I hope through these chats we can both help each other out and be the support we need for each other.