For the first time in 6 years, T made a mistake and I had to wait an extra hour for my appointment. At least I didn't miss it. I didn't mind sitting in the waiting room and reading. Has that happened to anyone? She said she told me about the change in time but I know she didn't, and didn't email to remind me either.

I was disappointed because I thought T could give me advice about showing artwork but she said she didn't know. If it was crossing a boundary to help me, she would have said. I feel like she got me this far and now abandoned me.

She gave me play doh to play with while I was trying to tell her some of the difficult, disgusting stuff. Well, it's not disgusting to her, only me of course. She doesn't like to do EMDR every week, but every other one. I asked and she said, no, there is no special training about discussing anatomy and sexuality in social work training. I guess I'm lucky that she has no problem with it.

I felt like throwing the play doh at her at one point and told her. I didn't think I was angry, just had built up tension.

I'm not sure why I'm depressed. I don't think it's because of my session, just my life in general. I'm back to emailing after my session, so I told her. It may be the weather, dreary and wintry, affecting my moods. Just trying to take it day by day. Missing my husband being in my life.