Just to clarify, I didn't actually say those terrible things to him. I left a message about some impulsive things that I had done and didn't say "call me back" so I pretty much figured he wouldn't. But I spent the whole night cursing him, hating him, etc. And I also wrote a letter to him including how I felt towards him. When I spoke with him on the phone today I said to him, "I wrote a mean letter. Should I bring it on Saturday?" He asked, "How mean is it?" And I said, "Well, there's been meaner. And there's some important stuff in there." He said to bring it.

I wish I could present myself to T as an emotionally mature individual. One who does not throw Lithium down the drain and then cut herself and leave a crazy message for T. But then again, if I was that individual, I probably wouldn't be in therapy in the first place. Sigh.