Thank you for this post. Your openness about a scary subject is amazing. I appreciate this as a person who has been in a similar situation. Always honest in relationships and faithful with deep moral convictions,I have fallen prey to the nastiness of mania. It was before diagnosis and the concept of help. In a decade long relationship, I suddenly turned and started sleeping with literally PILES of women. I didnt ask permission or address concerns. I did it and felt justified. I felt like a perfect, giving, enlightened human. Suddenly I felt like some sort of a crusader for sex positive/open/bisexual relationships. I should say that I've never been remotely interested in women and thanks to this period have now slept with considerably more women than men. The point is, I crushed a beautiful thing with wild abandon because some unknown force compelled me. Now I know better. Now I'm equipped with skills and resources should I start to fall apart,but when it happened I had no idea that something was wrong. A good friend suggested that I had a sudden personality/character shift that was alarming. I was honestly convinced that she was just not as open minded and free as me. It's sad actually and I pray I never walk that road again. I'm embarrassed thinking about it, but the truth is I was sick and I just didn't know it.
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