I've had a lot of thoughts lately about whether I should have married my husband... I feel so awful for even thinking it, but sometimes I think we'd both be better off if we'd never met. He's never done anything wrong... He's always there for me when I need him, and he tries his best to understand me. But there are fundamental differences in our personalities that I didn't realize really bothered me until now. I'm someone who always has to strive to be better, and he... isn't. He's fine with coasting through life with the least amount of effort possible. It really bothers me sometimes how little he cares about anything.

I'm going to try and bring it up with him later today, but I'm just not really sure what to say. I feel like I'm in the wrong for wanting him to be someone he's not. He shouldn't have to change that just for me... and I don't think it's right for me to even want him to. I just can't ignore it anymore...