I cut the other day ...something dirty and with dust on it (dont want to say what it was just in case someone uses the same after i post this) av gotam infection my husband been great looking after me
but all i want to do is cut ... my husband knows he is so supportive but i feel like i should cut because i think am worthless ...my husband cares too much for me to do that sometimes i feel angry that he cares
when i should be cutting or hurting myself some way
i dont know what he see in me that is worth anything

i have so much self hate but i dont have anywhere to express it