Hello,
I'm new here. I'm really scared and incredibly ashamed. I feel very alone because my partner is severely depressed. I do not know how to help him. I feel so overwhelmed by his emotions and I know I'm not helping him. I'm toxic. I hurt rather than help. I don't mean the things I say but I say them out of anger and hurt and desperation. I feel as though I should leave him for his own safety and well being but I'm scared that if I do that, he won't make it. I don't know what to do. He's not okay. I want to be there for him but I don't know where to begin. I feel like such a cold-hearted woman because I can't show him how I feel. I'm trying to protect myself from the hurt but he doesn't understand that.
Honestly, I think I'm far too close to the situation to understand how severe it really is for him. All I see is this man that I love and depend on falling apart and letting me down and I don't know what he needs from me. I want to be there for him, I just...don't know how.
Any help is appreciated. Thank you.