Last dec 21 I was very suicidal and I think in mixed Episode. I'd been manic and paranoid and hallucinating. Went to online crisis chat for help. Refused to tell my grandma what was going on and the person stopped taking to me. Ten minutes later there was banging on our door and door bell ringing at 1am. State police had me come out and he asked me if I wanted to hurt myself and if I had weapons or been self harming. Asked if I e been in treatment anywhere. Then he called ambulance and they interview me and say I have to go get checked out and where do I want to go.

I argued and argued that I was fine and my therapist would be checking in with me a couple days later via phone. Somehow, I talked them out of making me go.