Thank you, Qwerty. I agree. I'm toxic. I have severe PTSD and I don't always react to stress very well. My partner is very understanding for the most part but right now he needs me in a way I don't know I can deliver on. I am getting help for myself and my anger and to learn to control my emotions. As for him, he is not in therapy but probably needs to be. I've recommended it but the decision is his to make. I encourage him as best as I can. He seems to want me to make this better for him and the pressure is...insurmountable. I love him. I want desperately to make this work. But I also want to save his life. He's a good man and this world needs him in it. Thanks for the support.