Okay playa, please consider yourself benched. I don't know where this came from, I'm posting this 'cuz I want you to do your best at the SSDI hearing.

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

This Monroe's quote don't mean nothing to me except the line that saids "... to trust no one but yourself...".

Being an alien freak may be the only option, robo talker/thinker wouldn't understand things the way some of us do. Some of things you said like "crawling under a rock" or "feeling that you're no use to anyone", these are not fact-ish, it is only plausible to trust few things in life, going against the system, the best attitude might be to try to sneak in, I don't mean to confuse you but lies are all around us and I refuse to be flipping out about these sort of things.

You're still gonna need to prep for the game two weeks from now. Practice balls and hoops, don't go offence dunk on yourself at this point please, review things real quick if you have to, don't get shook or it'll show. Doubts, cowardice, these can be a big hindrance to your performance, psych yourself up. The mixed state of your mind, the knowable is almost the only thing you can count on.