So I LOATH the medicines I have to take; lithium, abilify, & visteral. None of it works! The only thing it has done for me is put on the weight. I'm still depressed, I can't focus or concentrate, & my anxiety is through the roof with absolutely no relief whatsoever. So for the past few days I've been flushing them down the toilet. Before going into the hospital for a a sucide attempt I was on Wellbutrin, Abilify, Adderrall, & Xanax. Everything was fine until I decided to stop taking the Abilify because I read it can be a weight gainer. Now my inpatient doctor, best friend, & husband insist that I need to stay on lithium and changing any of my medications means I'm not serious about my getting better. My husband forbids me from taking adderrall or xanax. My friend told me today that I'm not ADHD and that I'm only wanting it because I'm like an addict! What the hell does she know?! I'm been on it since I was 26, I'm now 41...of course she thinks I don't need it, I've been treated with it therefore I haven't had any symptoms of ADHD. WTF!!! How in the world do these people in my life think they know my body and mind better than me or the doctors for that matter?!!! I have to sit here & suffer in order to be accepted and taken seriously? I want/need to be on Lamictal, Wellbutrin, Adderrall, & Xanax as needed. But if I request that and am prescribed that it will be like WWIII in my life! I am so frusterated & pissed off by everyone! Suggestions anyone?