That makes total sense and it was kind of the way I was thinking looking at these pictures.

Your question surprises me. I was in that train of thought already. I friend tagged me in a picture on FB of her wedding. There I was! I have no memory of it. None. I recognize the look on the face of the one in the picture. She's not there. That brought to mind 2 other friends that I was a bridesmaid for and I have no recallable memory of it. Nothing. Some part of me knows it to be true but I can't remember anything about it.

That's not "normal" events, but it was events that were or should have been special to me, that aren't there.

Do you have a support group, other than here on PC? I've probably already asked this question, but I'm so looking for friends like me. I value you all and thank you for your friendship here. It's anonymous and I so need a group or person that I can talk to and be myself and real. Being real brings it into reality. Hope that makes sense.