Black mania is what my support group calls depression fueled by mania.
Trigger.
In my case Leeds to attempted suicide.
Now I'm just lower than a snakes belly.
Had a bit of high anxiety at 1 am.
My big cat got in my bedroom and attacked the kitten. I screamed and the big cat busted thru the screen. Now I have to keep the window closed.
I had a few drinks to calm down. I hadn't had any liquor for 3 months ( except on the plane) but bought some when the kitten had surgery.
She is a doll. Don't know if I can keep her safe from my big cat.
Thanks for the reply.
One day at a time is a great plan. I shouldn't assume this state will be forever.
One thing about bipolar. Your mood will change. Ha ha