(((Esthersvirtue))) I'm sorry you are feeling so poorly.

Hospitalization is usually done for those who are a danger to others or themselves. It is a place where you can be stablized on medication, and make arrangements for therapy after you leave the hospital. It can also be a short term relief break from the world when your mental health requires it.

IDK if you've ever been admitted into a lock up ward, but it is a pretty tight run place in general. When you arrive they take inventory of everything you show up with, take away the things you can't have there, and search your luggage and stuff to make sure you aren't bringing in your own medicines.

You wake at a time when they decide, each morning, go through a line for a health check (where you weigh, get BP and temp measured and tell them if you've gone to the bathroom and how often.) You wait for your meds (which can take a full day or two before you get any, unless the doctor sends you with a script or is on the ball with this.) Then you wait in line like everyone to get your meds and have to take them at the window while they watch you.

There are activities during the day that you must participate in, and some you can skip but you can't lie in your bed as they usually lock you out of your room during those sessions. You might see your doctor daily, but generally only every 3 days for psychiatrist.

You every move is recorded (well, not every but it must feel that way.) What you say, what you do, or don't do, how you interact with the other patients, if you were active in the classes... what you ate or didn't eat...etc.

You can't have any "sharps" there... and if you are there long enough to need to shave, you have to wait in line and then be watched by someone while you do. Your cell phone, laptops etc are confiscated and must be used by permission ..if they let you at all.

You go to bed when they tell you too, and they give you medicine to make you sleep at night. If you don't sleep, you might be allowed to watch tv, but won't have any interaction with the nurses etc.

It's really just a safe place to be until other things are figured out...meds and therapy sessions.

If you don't have regular therapy sessions, then it might be something to discuss with your MD or Pdoc if you have one.
Please make the call to your doctor whenever WHENEVER you are feeling that you can't go on.