lady2B,

You've only been working on this in therapy for three months....give yourself some time! What you experienced at 15 is beyond the realm of what is normal for a teenage child. Holding that silence all these years must have been horrible. Talking now might seem more horrible.

One thing that I've observed firsthand with survivor friends that I know is that the ones who are able to attend a facilitated survivor group 'normalize' their experience faster than those that do not. This is only my observation of perhaps ten people over the years.

If you want to PM me please do. My experience at 14 was horrifying and I did not tell for many years. I'm not great at linking in this place but I posted a thread about it in the dissociation forum titled--how many years before you told. Even though I was asking with a slant toward dissociation the question is a valid one for exploring why we are as we are.

Be extra gentle with yourself. You're in the midst of some courageous healing work. This journey will take as long as it takes. There are many people who are willing to help support you along the way.

Thanks for reaching out.