Totally get what you're saying. When I get to the point you're talking about, I feel like I'm stuck in a little room. I can see outside and the world looks so happy and colorful, but I don't get the share that.

You might not like my solutions, but I will work out if I can get enough energy to start. Sometimes I can only go for a few minutes. That can sometimes help a bit. The other thing is that I write a lot. I send all of it to my T. Sometimes several times in one day. It helps me feel safe and connected. I can now tell her if I need her to response or not.

This may not seem like it answers your question. But these are the only things I have found that can give me enough energy to get moving again. I am very selective about who I can / will interact with when I'm stuck. I have one friend who doesn't know much about my problems, but he's the world's most unjudgemental person, so he can be a big help to be around.

In my broken brain, what helps the most is this. I've learned over 5 years of therapy that I've endured more than most people. As have you and many of us here. So many days I used more energy just surviving, let alone thriving, than most people can even muster. I've learned that I'm a survivor, and so are you, so I give myself a break these days. If I'm tired, the kind of tired that you're talking about, I just let myself be tired. I remind myself that I had to use all of what I had to just stay alive for the day.

I hope my post helps in some way. If not, I'm happy to bounce ideas and experiences around. God knows I could use some help with the exact same thing. Hang in there, and as a T once told me "Be gentle with yourself."

I take 25 mg Zoloft, 200 mg Wellbutrin. I don't think it helps much, but I don't have any negative side-effects, so I stick with them. Honestly, the best med I've been on is a huge, gigantic multi-vitamin made for seniors. Ha ha, but it actually seems to help...