((((( brandon9 )))))

I am sorry that you're feeling so hurt, alone, and angry.

Have you tried checking out any local emotional support groups in your community? Maybe take a class at the local community college for the heck of it & have it be a class for your personal interest (photography, art appreciation, music, etc.).

Just a couple of ideas to get you thinking about things that you CAN do. Things that will get you interacting with other people and feeling less alone in the world, hopefully. Very best wishes to you!