when i go back to Pennsylvannia.....my grandma is going to take me to go get it...its also in remembrance of her love for me raising me while my mom couldnt.....im hoping near christmas time (thats when im going home) i dont want it too too big i dont want it taking up my whole hip just a few inches and such ....i cant wait...my mimi is excited too...thanks for all the complements and meaningful comments...it means alot ....