Welcome! Sorry you are having such a rough time. Depression is insidious and awful to live though. You are on a lot of meds for depression, have any helped in the past? Up a dose maybe? Do you also have Bipolar? If so a lot of those meds could cause problems with mania without a mood stabiliser like Lamictal. Well, you have our support here. We know what it is like to dwell in the depths of depression. Do you see a T? If not, they may also be able to help you manage the depression. Are you safe? I am glad you pressed to see your pdoc. You sound like you need to. Good luck with the appointment.