Perhaps your doctor had an emergency that caused him to leave town. You never know. It's frustrating but pdocs are people too and have lives. I know how frustrating it is to wait for an appointment only to have it moved, especially when you are unwell. But sometimes there's really nothing that can be done about it.

I don't understand the use of stimulants for treating depression especially because of the risk of mania but that's just me. Maybe it works for some people. I certainly hope it works for you. For now, just focus on getting through each day one at a time. Depression is awful and if you think too far in the future you may not be able to handle it. Just one day at a time, maybe even one hour at a time, one minute at a time if you need to.

Is there maybe an outpatient program near you? Like an intensive outpatient or partial hospital program? If your depression is causing you to be nonfunctional you may benefit from a program like this. It's like being in the hospital but you get to go home afterward. Usually you participate in groups. You'll see a pdoc once a week at least if you're in partial. And the pdoc is always there if you have an emergency. I've done this several times when unwell and it has really helped.