Thank you for sharing this. I have reached a point in my life where I don't believe in monogamy anymore. I don't know whether it's bipolar or not, I just realize I can't be with just "one" person.

I think what is going to happen to me is my best friend (who is male and my ex) will be my companion in my twilight years and that's the best I could hope for.

I know in my heart I cannot give myself to one person and one person only because I am not wired that way especially sexually. I have asked God to forgive me and all my misgivings and I believe He did forgive me, and granted me some miracles in His own way.

But you bring up a great point in dealing with relationships when you are bipolar. Much hugs to you and your recovery. You have come a long way.