Tomorrow my 2 feline boys and I are making the hour long trip to the vet for vaccinations. This is a very nerve-racking experience for me.

Apollo was diagnosed with cancer one year ago. He has had 2 surgeries to remove cancerous tumors. I am happy to report he is doing remarkably well and not showing any signs of illness. When he received the diagnosis, we were told months and here we are one year later.

The vet's office has been a place of both sadness and happiness for us. And worst of all fear I think. I tell myself I should be getting used to this trip, but it gets harder every time. Initially Apollo was seeing the vet monthly, but since he has been doing great we make the trip about every 2-3 months now.

Well tomorrow is just routine vaccinations for both of my boys, but I am still so scared. It's fear of the unknown. What am I going to learn? The worst moment for me is when the vet listens to Apollo's lungs. I can imagine her saying they are not clear, but hearing it is something I cannot plan for.

Apollo has salivary gland cancer, and so far we are not aware of it spreading to any other areas. However, the lungs are a potential target for the disease.