Young children are a blessing but if you are living in a town away from all your relatives, it can be very isolating. Medications may help but it sounds like you need to talk to someone (maybe a therapist). You're right. You won't feel better instantly but if you can find help and work toward feeling better; you definitely can improve. After all, you say you love your husband and your girls are beautiful. That gives you a reason to improve. You have already taken a first step by venting your frustrations here. And your children will not stay little forever, when they are both in school you will likely feel much less isolated. It will probably get much better for you eventually. Try to hang in there and seek help in the meantime!