So I did as planned, I found work 9 hr flight away went to work then called him saying I'm not coming back.
I'm ok just incredibly sad and anxious but I have 3 journals with all the horrible things he said or did to remind me why I had to leave.
But hes devastated, calls me at least 6 times a day saying he loves me, hes the best thing ever to happen to me, he cant cope without etc etc. I dont want to go back but now devastated I've hurt him so much. Hes threatening to kill himself.
I'm in tears for him but know if i went back nothing will stay changed.
I'll be fine without him, I have my career and a support network but he has zilch. The pain of seeing him in pain is also breaking my heart.
Thanks for listening. I'd appreciate your thoughts