I really don't know if i'm coming or going...? My hearts telling me one thing & my brain is driving me mad saying the other... I feel a heavy gut-pit most of the time, horrible deep wrenching feeling... But i cant seem to walk away...? I feel used, unloved, worthless. & he just doesn't seem to care... The lies, under-handed, deceit just keeps coming... & I DONT KNOW WHY...
Everything is such hard work... We dont do anything apart from argue & fight because he doesnt wanna listen to how i feel which in-turn leaves me frustrated & rejected... He doesnt take me out, he just takes off me, steals from me, lies to me about the most stupid things... Then blames everything on me... He puts me down saying the most horrible things... He lies to other people & his family about me... As i'm writing this i'm thinking what the hell are you on...? Who in there right mind would keep putting up with or being treated so badly all the time.... So what the hell is wrong with me...?