Yes: I agree. I am going to see a therapist next week.

I have also realised that there is a bit of a dynamic happening between us for many reasons. He was in a bad motor cycle accident early last year, and then, just as he was getting back on his bike, was diagnosed, and treated for successfully ,prostate cancer.

This of course has contributed to the situation I think.

Mortality and all that jazz. I wasn't ready to be confronted so soon I think. And I wasn't ready to lose all that followed.

I am also trying meditation as a means to calm my reactions . Early days but I'm hopeful.