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Originally Posted by shattered sanity
we are always checking emails
first off, we get all the stuff from the forums- new private message alerts, reply notifications, friendship requests, and it's also our way of talking to people we met online who we'd like to talk to outside the relevant sites
(actually we sometimes get funny jokes sent to us and that's cool!)
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That's nice...one can be so envious of you. Us on the other hand have people phobia. Our people skills are lacking. Face to face and even online causes us to freak out, stress, fear, self-loathing: major triggering...it takes everything for us even to express ourselves on here without internal degradation, accusing, name calling, ridicule, chastising in multiple voices. Hence deletion after deletion. Always the fear of being judged badly which is a self fullfilling prophesy.
We are often embarrassed at/about ourselves with personel expression...as with the previous year...nobody wants to be seen or heard from anymore after that frenzy. I'm sure it's after a lifetime of being abused and made to feel worthless for so long.
So we sit at home safe from public exposure, but yet yearning connection. Public speaking isn't our thing.l.it's so stressful to panic attacks not knowing what's going to come out your mouth next! Ugh it's so soul binding and exhausting!
It's totally scary to read what other people's return comments so much it may take days to get up the courage to check it out, hence the delay in replies.
Anyways...We can only wish.
