this is actually quite a sensitive topic for me, but I wanted to respond

their is a lot I blame my parents for.

my upbringing (they could have chosen to be loving if they wanted to, but didn't)

the abuse

the abandonment

I don't think it's right though to blame them for everything.

I mean we've not spoken in 12 years and my life's still a **** up

i've got more issues than a waiting room,full of patients, i'm depressed and suicidal, and i'm unsure of where I want my life to go.

that's not my parents fault... that's not anyone's fault

so maybe it was my families fault they decide to shut me out rather than help me, but the fact remains you just don't know what caused some of the stuff that's going on

and I certainly can't blame them for the physical problems I have, they didn't tell me to binge on all that food, for example, and they didn't tell me to harm myself (well they encouraged it, but it wasn't like they told me to start it)