Riddled with anxiety. I have to travel in a week to see family on the opposite coast. Traveling and its preparations (and Christmas presents) send my anxiety into the stratosphere.

I have things to do. Preparations to make. But I'm paralyzed by anxiety. Do I take that PRN klonopin or do I save what I have for more pressing days (my travel days and any emergencies)? I'm scared of missing planes, of not having enough meds with me. When my anxiety hits too high, everything scares me.

Will I be able to handle my 3 little nephews' deafening noise (when I'm very anxious, I can't take noise)? Will I be able to get enough sleep (no), I need lots of sleep with the meds I take.

My family is splintered, everyone is divorced, some remarried.

I'm so anxious. So scared... Will I make it to the other side unscathed? Will I enjoy myself sometimes despite everything?