I don't blame my parents for my physical health. I know I don't eat healthy or exercise or drink enough water. These are my decisions. But I think parents have a great influence in programming their children's minds. My responsibility is to change this programming, but it's not easy.

I would have chosen personality over education and wealth, because I feel I have no respect whatsoever in the world. While others with less education and money have respect, friends, and girlfriends, and they enjoy their times. Education and money aren't everything. They don't buy happiness and genuine respect. My father has this twisted view that money buys respect and happiness. Maybe because he was raised poor, but I wasn't raised poor, and education and money don't mean anything to me.

This forum has been a place for me to write my thoughts and feelings, but I haven't learned or progressed a bit since I first signed up more than a couple of years ago. This doesn't mean I feel better when I write, but sometimes I feel I need to say something, and I have no one to talk to, so I come here and write.

Do I like being praised and complimented? No actually I don't, and I don't search for it, because I think people are hypocrite when praising me when I do something good, while when I'm in a bad situation and depressed no one asks about me.