I don't because I have no one in my life. Even if I had, I wouldn't want to say anything about my situation. I wouldn't feel good about myself. What I'm asking for is, when I try to reach out, for people to be more accepting. Several times I tried to contact people I knew from school or work to go out to break the cycle, and the answer has always been "no". I'm not sure why. Maybe they think I'm not interesting or fun, which is true. And of course when I don't text anyone, no one texts me, because I always have to initiate things. That's why I don't want people to praise me and contact me if I do something good, because they don't care about me as a person.