I am sorry you're living like this. I had a similar situation for 10 whole years! (Although I'm bp 1 I still have my triggers and get depressed). The one thing that helped was getting my own place. I know I know. I thought I'd never do it either. But the planets lined up with section 8 and here I am. I hope you feel better. One thing that helped me was getting out as much as possible- a coffee shop with a friend for example. Listen to your favorite music. Have you taken DBT? They do a section called distress tolerance which was very helpful to me. I used to call the psych ER all the time (or go in). My med record is sobering to read. I hope you find peace! Not just this month but always. You deserve it!!