She's afraid I will go manic bc when I first started to emsam I was taking it every day and got very slightly hypomanic. That's why we brought it down to every other day. She wanted me to do some convoluted two days on one day off Thing but I told her there was no way I could remember that schedule. So she's going to be calling my t who I see weekly and telling her to watch for mania signs. I don't see pdoc again until January. I have to remember to call and set up an appointment. I'll see her the first week of January.

If the pattern continues I will be fine ina couple of days but it's so hard to drag myself through my day. I make a real effort to rearrange my face when depressed so I don't appear miserable to my students. But when I'm alone in my classroom I just sit there and stare. I have so much grading to do. It's piling up like crazy.

I just have to push through.