something dad said is sticking with me
yesterday i think? im not sure... never sure..

I don't think he even remembers, they never remember

they were arguing per usual, over silly stuff... we were just trying to drink a few beers and have fun, per usual
trying to quell the argument and make them see the silliness...

i dont remember it all, i just keep hearing the same words..
"what do you do around here?"
I tried to state myself, I do what I can, i do all i can... as much as i can...
i don't have money, i cant pay bills, but i try as hard as i can to 'be small'... to take care of things i can... and be helpful hand everywhere i can...

isnt that something?

I so need to just find a way to move out.....

tired of feeling so unimportant... so dependent... broken... useless... worthless!