I'm really interested in learning about this feeling or behavior whichever it is. I was told I have this toward my therapist, but I would like some simple explanation and anyone's opinion on why it happens. I started off having secret feelings of being with him and looked forward to all my visits with him. Then our phone conversations, to waiting for him to return from vacations. I started dreaming about him and having day dreams of being with him sexually. How screwed up am I? During one of my manic episodes I even went so far as to come on to him during one of our visits and tell him things I wanted to do. Was I embarrassed, No. However at our next appt I had to appologize which he was great and said he understand what it was and he didn't blame me. But he did turn beat red when I did it again and then asked for a hug. He's been totally professional, but I still have dreams about him and part of me thinks it could be some kind of love. So help me figure this out if you can. Oh by the way my marriage sucks.