Ok so I've been diagnosed for 13 years now and I would say, in active therapy, for ten. Well in that whole time I've had only two T's that I was comfortable with. And I've had a lot, like a lot, of T's. The office is pretty much a turn table for residents. Pdocs and T's come and go faster than a McDonald's staff. Well when I'm living my daily life I think numerous times of what would be a good therapy topic based on what's bothering me at that moment. But the day of my appointment I totally blank out and have a false sense of health. So by the time I'm sitting across from the T, I'm totally blank. It's like I've talked myself into a little child's game and I'm the key player. I realize that this way of going about it is only hurting myself. So what I started doing in the last week is writing down (in a few words) what is bothering me. So far I have four main points. So come hell or high water, at my next appointment I'm going to bring my notebook and tell her what I have. And that's that. We'll run from there. But why must it be so hard though? And no it's not just this one. I've done this with every single T for 13 years. Even the ones I liked. What can I do to make this smoother? And who's to say I won't toss my list of complaints out the window on the way to the office? Ugh.